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fine print [poem]

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write me a poem
let me read each breath between the lines
your pulse the rhythm followed
as your words twist around my heart
and wow
this is different
poets don’t often get poetry
lovers too intimidated to try sharing in the opening up
the baring of bones too intimate
but you
brave soul
you scribble your soul in permanent ink
and dare me to decipher the marks
to read the fine print
unintelligible I love yous and forget-me-nots
and your heart keeps beating
poetry

-poem by Larissa Lee
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reckless giver [poem]

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I am a reckless giver
my hands
spilling the waters of my life’s blood out
to anyone who’s thirsty
my heart
an open door anyone can walk into
I am home
sanctuary to anyone who comes looking for peace
for a minute to just breathe
my mouth
full of the words anyone needs to hear
the truth when possible
the silence when truth becomes too harsh to bear
the listener too tender to hear it
I am a bottomless pool of forgiveness
absolution to anyone who can’t
face themselves for their sins
my tears
a gentle rain to wash it all away
I am selflessness personified and
karma’s first ripple in anyone’s favor and
I am here
always

-poem by Larissa Lee
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choices [poem]

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I’ve done many things I regret
things that took me down
crooked unlit paths
where I end up lost inside myself
but regret
is not always synonymous
with wanting to undo your mistakes
I don’t
I accept mine
each wrong turn
a piece of the journey that
brought me here
now
to this moment
each failure
a part of who I’ve become
to undo my mistakes is to unmake myself
to become a stranger
incomplete
someone else’s image
I am
every angry word said in haste
every dent in this copper heart of mine
every shadow in these eyes
I am my choices
and I would choose it all again
to become
this

-poem by Larissa Lee
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lost fey child [poem]

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you’re living my life in the between places
not quite here and
not quite gone
trapped in the blurry area separating
the start from the end
as it were
you
my dear
are a lost fey child
stumbling in the grey zones
of this world and the next
never aging but
always getting older
time
is not your friend
You stand here in the doorway
frozen by your indecision
a life on pause

-poem by Larissa Lee
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messy [poem]

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you are a mess
an absolute disaster
and I am not your medicine
your salvation
I’m human
I breathe and
bite and
bleed
like anyone else
and I can’t deal with you
not with your sharp edges and
unwillingness to
help yourself
to grab some sandpaper and
smoothe over some of those painful pieces
if you won’t help yourself
to be whole again
how the hell am I supposed to glue you back together?
I’m no miracle worker and
you don’t believe in miracles anyway
so what do you want from me?
I can’t fix you
when you’re so happy
to stay messy

-poem by Larissa Lee
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plastic smiles [poem]

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it started with a smile
a chapped curve of lying lips
it was see-through like plastic wrap
flimsy and
insubstantial
but they let you get by on that falsehood
every
I’m fine
another careful line
in the screenplay of How To Be Okay
written by you
they didn’t look deeper
didn’t see the shadows in your eyes
or the way your steps faltered when others walked past
but I saw it
the violence in your heart
the demons you were running from
I knew that look
the haunted emptiness of broken promises
of harsh words
of hopeless goodbyes
you see
I’ve danced with the demons too
felt that anger
that self-loathing
burning in my chest too
I’ve wanted to wrap my hands around a bottle and
swallow until I stopped feeling too
but we don’t have to do this
there’s always another way to
pick up your scattered bits
and make sense of living again
if you look
really look in the mirror
you’ll see
the mask is just soot
from the burning of your rebirth
phoenix child
please
take this washcloth
and wipe away those ashes until
you finally see what I see

-poem by Larissa Lee